Instantaneous Incredulity

AMEETA IS COMING HOME AGAIN TOMORROW.

OHHH MYYY GOOODNESSSSS.

Plus my birthday and Costa Rica are in one week! :D

I must have done something right because my Karma has been treating me far too well lately.

Sweet Desires

I had an amazing evening, one definitely needed after such a horrible day yesterday. I seriously miss my ethnic posse sooo much. It was good to see their beautiful faces once more before they ship back off to school. I can't wait for the summer when they come here for a while; we're SO beaching it every single day, hahaha.

Yesterday was a disaster, though. School was blah in itself and then I come home to learn that my dad needs to make another trip to the hospital. Cancer is such a depressing phenomenon. I really hope my dad recovers soon, I love him too much to lose him. But thanks to my amazing friends, my mood improved today. I love it when people can do that.

Food for thought: never lose your good friends and family; they're your support and your guide when you can't seem to be.

Unfortunate Fortune or Fortunately Unfortunate?

Here I am, sitting in sociology class, going over my homework and I start to think. Our homework was to anazlye the two arguments for why poverty exists. One side says it's ultimately the individual's doing, and the other side blames society. I can't say that there's any one reason for why there is poverty, but these two sides invoke thought. Is it really society's fault, or could the individual be the one to blame? Nobody would ever wish poverty upon themselves, but perhaps they just lack incentive and motivation? Is being rich that unattainable? It couldn't be if Gates did it. My father-in-law did it, and plenty others, too. So why is it that some people can work to be rich and others just can't? Why is it that some work sooo hard yet never progress? Then I have to ask if being rich is worth it. Is the phrase "more money, more problems" legit? Are the less wealthy really better off, as they are taught to be less materialistic and dependent on money for happiness? Which of the two is more appreciative? So many questions, so few answers.

That's one thing I love about this class; I never stop thinking.

Hate But Don't Obliterate

BIRTHDAY COUNTDOWN:

13 DAYS

COSTA RICA COUNTDOWN:

14 DAYS

Life is good. :D

Quintessential Mentality

the area dividing the brain and the soul
is affected in many ways by
experience-
some lose all mind and become soul:
insane.
some lose all soul and become mind:
intellectual.
some lose both and become:
accepted.

~ Charles Bukowksi

No need to analyze, just soak in the wonders that are the words of Bukowski.

Rejuvenance

"Drink wine...this is life eternal; this is all that youth will give you.
It is the season for wine, roses and drunken friends.
Be happy for this moment; this moment is your life...."

~ Omar Khayyam

Ahhh, the joys of spring. Such a great time for renewal in my life. They should really make spring resolutions instead of new year resolutions. It's a bit more fitting. :D I'm going to make a few lifestyle changes myself, but you don't get to know what they. ;D

And happy birthday to my lovely sister, Ameeta! It's almost not your birthday anymore in Dubai, but the best part about being overseas is you get to celebrate in every hemisphere! It's still your birthday for 12 more hours here, so live it up, hahaha. Have an amazing day, I love you, and I'll be seeing you in twoish weeks for MY birthday!

Deprivation of Sanity

Hahaha, what a day.

I was making a quesadilla last night and grated my skin instead of the cheese. I would've made Anthony Hopkins proud. It reminded of "Silence of the Lambs" so much that I went on a quote rampage and started reciting all my favorite lines. Movie quotes are like song lyrics; there's one for every situation. :D

And then today was just... interesting, hahaha. Words can't really describe it, but it was a pleasant day nonetheless. Carmen and I are two very extreme stalkers and we need to learn how to be a little bit more low-key with our lurkish ways. We're going to get caught one day, I just know it.

In my efforts to have a bangin' body for Smee's wedding, I went running today. I'm actually excited to get out of this winter laziness and become active again. However, I'm in dire need of a beac trip; my skin is far too light for my liking.

Nowww I am studying for psych, woo! This week is already over and Ameeta's birthday is on Friday, and you know what that means!

You do know, don't you?

No? Shame. It means my birthday is 16 days later which ALSO means spring break! YAAAY COSTA RICA! I love birthdays and good times. :D

Substantially Drained

My hardest midterm wasn't even that bad, thank God! Statistics is actually a pretty chill class. It's amazing to finally understand math, hahaha. We didn't have our ethics quiz AGAIN. Honestly, I have respect for Rosenthal, but that guy is a nutcase. I guess it's kind of fitting since he loves squirrels...

Anyway, I have a piano test tomorrow and a psych test on Thursday. Once this week is over, I'm smooooth sailing. :D

I absolutely LOVE Mondays and Wednesdays. I only have two classes and they happen to be my favorite ones, I get to chill with Carmen, and I get to see a few certain people that I don't mind running into all the time, if you get my drift. ;D

I was listening to the lyrics of "Spiralling" and realized how much sense they make. Check it out:

Ooo
Ooo

I'm waiting
For my moment to come
I'm waiting
For the movie to begin
I'm waiting
For a revelation
I'm waiting for someone
To count me in

Cos now
I only see my dreams
In everything I touch
Feel their cold hands on
Everything that I love
Cold like some
Magnificent skyline
Out of my reach
But always
In my eye line now

We're tumbling down
We're spiralling
Tied up to the ground
We're spiralling

I fashioned you
From jewels and stone
I made you
In the image of myself
I gave you
Everything you wanted
So you would never know
Anything else

But every time
I reach for you
You slip
Through my fingers
Into cold sunlight
Laughing at the things
That I had planned
The map of my world gets
Smaller as I sit here
Pulling at the loose
Threads now

We're tumbling down
We're spiralling
Tied up to the ground
We're spiralling
When we fall in love
We're just falling
In love with ourselves
We're spiralling

Did you wanna be a winner?
Did you wanna be an icon?
Did you wanna be famous?
Did you wanna be the president?
Did you wanna start a war?
Did you wanna have a family?
Did you wanna be in love?
Did you wanna be in love?

I never saw the light
I never saw the light
I waited up all night
But I never saw the light

When we fall in love
We're just falling
In love with ourselves
We're spiralling
We're tumbling down
We're spiralling
Tied up to the ground
We're spiralling

Ooo
Ooo

My favorite line is "when we fall in love/ we're just falling/ in love with ourselves". It's so truthful. I haven't fallen in love yet, but I imagine that when someone does fall in love, it's with how they feel about themselves when they're with their significant other more so than it is the actual person. Or perhaps I'm just an outsider looking in and I'll never know until I experience it. All in good time, I suppose. ;D

I love song lyrics; they somehow find an artistic way to organize jumbled thoughts.

Scholastic Meltdown

I really REALLY don't want to study for midterms, hahaha. Why do that when I could be doing something far more entertaining? ;D I kid, I kid. I will study.... eventually.

Apparently everyone likes to shop at the Topanga mall (I don't blame them, Simi sucks.). Dinali and I went on Friday and we literally saw the whole world there. We saw a mess of people from high school that we (or I at least) haven't spoken to since graduation day. It was nice to see them! It's so weird how in such a short while, so much has changed with all of us.

But it makes me think about how different we all will be in ten years. It's almost been one year since graduation and already, our lives have begun. I can't imagine how much is going to change in ten years. Which high school relationships will have lasted? Who will be Obama's next intern? (Hopefully I get this one!) Who will we see on the big screen? I want these answers now! But I don't want to be 28 yet. :/

My sister's ten year reunion is coming up but she's in Dubai so she's not even going to go. I asked her if she wanted to and she said, "No, I'd really rather not go. If I wanted to see everyone and how they're doing, I would have made more of an effort to keep in touch with them post-graduation. The people I want in my life are in them and that's all I need."

Perceptive, I know, but I still want to know. ;D I'm just going to go to her ten year as her; we look the same, anyway hahaha.

Oh, and I'm becoming seriously obsessed with the song Spiralling by Keane.

One Half Of A Whole Heartbreak

To my babygirl Maria,

I seriously can't believe it's been six months since the train accident. Six whole months. That's quite a while, my dear. Not a day went by where I didn't think of you and your wonders. I really hope you're okay wherever you are. I miss you so much. :'(

Your death taught the most important life lesson of love and cherishing our close ones. Because of you, I have more of an appreciation for the finer things in life and for the people in it. I've learned so much from you. You were always so happy and smiley, and I've made your ways my own lifestyle. I find myself living a better life this way. Thank you for all that you've done for me. You've touched so many people and we're all thankful we had the opportunity to know you and be graced by your friendship. You truly are an amazing person inside and out and I wish the world got to see more of that. You will never EVER be forgotten because you're far too amazing.

In your very own words, be fierce, sweetie, and we'll meet again soon.

I love you always and forever. <3

Rest In Peace Maria Elena Villalobos

January 4th, 1990 - September 12th, 2008

Irked

I am SO upset!

Okay so, my sister leaves for Dubai today. Her flight leaves at 5:30 pm meaning she needs to be at the airport at around 2ish. I couldn't go see her off because I had a statistics test and an ethics quiz.

I go to my ethics class and it's CANCELLED.

CANCELLED!

I could've been at the airport with my family one last time but nooo.

Grrrrrrrrrrrrrrrr.

Whatever, I'll get to see her in Costa Rica in a couple of weeks. But I'm still upset. :'(

Recrudescence

Today in statistics, the girl next to me kept texting. I couldn't help but look over and I noticed that she had a Sidekick. Her's was all cute and blinged out, but the point is that she had a Sidekick. I felt so sad and lonely. I missed my Ralph like crazy. :/ (Yesss, I named my phone Ralph.)

Then, I get home from school at like 7ish and my dad hands me my Sidekick.

Ralph has come back to me! The Sidekick RETURNS! I am so so SO happy this device is back in my hands once more. Honestly, I felt lost without it for the past three weeks.

Maybe my mother was right about becoming too reliant on technology... Noooo, couldn't be. ;D

I am thoroughly jubilant. :D

Phenomenal

I definitely had an amazing weekend overall. Friday, Saturday AND Sunday of just pure awesomeness. I love busy weekends like these.

Wednesday is coming so sooooooooon. :/ That's okay, April is coming up and that means COSTA RICA!

I thoroughly love my life right now.

Goodnight, world. ;D

Indirect Stream of Consciousness

Sooo, this is directed at a certain someone whose name I shall not mention, but whose personality I must expose.

- Honestly, you're a poser. Just accept it. You're like a little kid. You feed off everyone else's ideas and creativity and try to claim it as your own. You pretend to be someone you're not and your act differs with the person you're around. You try so hard to fit in with people, it's insane. I don't usually have such little faith in the human race, but you're an exception. The hiatus we took was definitely necessary and I don't think we're doing much justice to our relationship if we end it now. You're a clingy person and you just don't understand when to back off. I see now why people get annoyed with you. I know the REAL you better than most do, so I know when you're being fake. Do yourself a favor and stop trying to be someone you're not. Thank you, and goodnight. -

For those of you reading this, I know I'm being harsh, but if you knew the situation, you would agree with every word stated.

On a lighter note, the weather is getting better, yay!

The Elixir Of Youth

Last night was craaazy! Sushi and champagne make for an interesting night, hahaha. I can't even believe I downed two glasses of champagne. I'm such a rebel! Good times, though. I love being with people I adore in a fun atmosphere. I also must mention that there is NO place like LA. But as much as I love it here, I'm ready for bigger and better endeavors. ;D

Wednesday is coming entirely too quickly; it's so depressing. I'm going to miss my sister oh so dearly. :'(

Blue Eyes

“One belongs to New York instantly, one belongs to it as much in five minutes as in five years”

~ Thomas Wolfe

Frank Sinatra wasn't a fool when he sang about the great city of New York.

I can't stop thinking about how much I want to be there! I really, REALLY hope NYU works out because there would be nothing more perfect than getting schooled in such a fabulous city.

This week was one chillll week. Good news from the counselor, Ameeta came home, and now my weekend begins and we're going to have a super amazing time. PLUS I am going to Costa Rica for spring break! Goodness, my life is going a bit TOO well right now. I must be in for something later on, hahaha.

Ah well, there's no time like the present. ;D

Anticipation

Ameeta comes home today!

It is currently 9:17 pm and I am anxiously awaiting her return. Of course it will take her longer because of traffic.

I do adore LA.

Unflappable

Today was such an amazing day. I met with my college counselor after classes about transferring, and I can't even begin to say how excited I am for my future. This meeting basically solidified my determination to get into NYU by next fall. I only need 24 more units to transfer. I know it sounds horribly cliche, but I feel so ecstatic about what is to come. It's as though I'm finally leaving childhood behind and moving on to bigger and better obstacles. My dreams are finally becoming a reality and I am so ready to live it.

This upcoming spring is going to be amazing as it is. At a glimpse, this is what's coming up:
- Ameeta's homecoming
- Ameeta's and Aunish's birthday
- My birthday
- Kunal's birthday
- Kevin Rudolf concert
- Smee's birthday
- Robin Thicke concert
- End of semester

And then we're into summer which includes:
- Hawaii
- Endless beach trips
- Smee's wedding

My goodness, I am so looking forward to the rest of this year. I feel so happy right now, it's indescribable. Spring always has the habit of bringing loveliness. :D