Ataxia

For a little self-affirmation:

I will not be played. You will not sway me. I am not another one. I see right through you. I will play along, but don't think you've got me sprung because you don't.

Not a whole lot, anyway.


And on to other news, I love life! It's wonderful! Aside from some lame friend drama and broke college kid swag, it's amazing. I love my roomies, my friends, my sorority, everything.

I NEED to work on my beach bod for Miami. Two months remaining before all hell breaks loose. ;)

Unsound

I hate that I've made the one mistake I promised myself I'd never make and will now reap the effects forever. I hate it most that this mistake is what some people know me by because they don't know me otherwise.

This sucks.

Fervent

No but really, I'm serious. I'm in college, I'm not going to waste my time chasing something that never was. If it happens, it happens, but I don't think I'm in the mood to be waiting for it anymore. Especially if there's nothing to keep me motivated.

Is that a bitch move?

But I've been putting much more thought into my life lately and weighing my options right now. I'm very happy with the way things are but I'm wondering if I could be happier if I open my mind just a bit more. I never thought I'd see this day come but I'm just going to come right out and say it: I think I might be interested in having a relationship right now. I don't know if I'm ready for one yet. I feel ready, but it's a little difficult to compare feelings when I've never been on the other side before.

I don't know. I can say this much, though. College is absolutely everything I needed. Coming home this weekend reminded me of how happy I truly am with everything right now.

Life's sweet. I want it sweeter. Catch my drift? ;)

Overthrown

Looks like I'm off steady desserts for a while.

Really though, why settle for one when there's an entire smorgasbord of tasty treats just waiting to be had?

It's my time to experiment, right?

Right?!

:/

Cinched

I've decided.

Cupcakes are nice, but after a while they're just too sweet and inedible.

Cheesecake has always and will always be perfectly delicious to me.

<3

Appy Polly Loggies

So sorry for the boning out on updating but school keeps me busy here. I will try to be more diligent about writing; I've had a lot on my mind lately and I want to capture my moments in college.

Until then.

Bonne Bouche

Okay, I have an issue. To avoid stating it directly, I will use the metaphor of desserts.

Ironic because I should be studying for my Sociology of Food midterm but I can't stop thinking about this issue.

I was introduced to cheesecake a while ago. At first, I didn't realize its potency or its sweet, succulent aroma, but after associating with cheesecake for a while, these beautiful aspects couldn't be ignored. I soon became nearly obsessed with it. Every time I'd see the word cheesecake, my heart fluttered. Every time I sampled the creamy treat, my taste buds danced. I grew a strong like for cheesecake and could see this beautiful creation being my sole dessert of choice for a long time. Cheesecake has my back. It's not perfect, but the imperfections are what draw me to it. It's there for me and gives me exactly the satisfaction I'm looking for. It doesn't have the best of all reputations, but it's well-liked and I like it back. Stronger than that. I want cheesecake.

Then I become acquainted with cupcakes. Oh, cupcakes. From your perfect physique to your sweetly beautiful taste, you prove to me that desserts can still have it all. Cupcakes give it their all and look good doing it. Cupcakes are at another calibre, another level, another dimension. They, like cheesecake, are concerned with my hunger and never cease to pull through in making sure I am a happy camper. Cupcakes are borderline perfect and would probably be more accepted from my side.

But I can't stop thinking about cheesecake. I love it. It's been there for me and hasn't let me down yet. I have big plans for cheesecake. I don't feel for cupcakes what I feel for cheesecake, but please believe me when I say I do love cupcakes.

Cheesecake is much harder for me to get, though. It's a bit of a mission but when I get it, it's so worth all the wait. Cupcakes are more readily available but still just as sweet every single time. Both are willing to make me happy.

In summary: cheesecake = a bit more distant, a bit more work, but everything I could ever want.
Cupcakes = easier to get and much more relatable, but still so wonderful.

They both satisfy me but in a different way. Which do I choose?

Or do I even have to choose?