I really never anticipated feeling this homesick.
Yesterday I moved from the comforts of my small town to my new school and at first, all was well. But as soon as my parents left, I felt really ridiculously homesick. I miss them and everyone SO much. I miss my old routines. I miss just being at home. It's strange, too, because at home I wanted nothing more than to get out and be on my own, away from the constraints of my parents. But now that I got exactly what I wanted, I just want to be home again. I'm sitting here feeling really lovely but I know I'm not. My roommates are amazing, and I have a few friends here already. I just don't know, I really don't. I feel like I don't belong here and that this isn't my home. I know it's just going to take some getting used to. It's only the second night, so this is expected I guess. But still, I just really miss my family. This is my first time on my own, all by myself, and it's all so new to me. I'm especially sad because I want to be home with my dad while he's still going through this. He is doing much better but I still want to be around for him. It's just a huge rush of emotion right now and I feel like a mess.
I just hope this subsides soon...